Leaning Not on My Own Understanding

Leaning Not on My Own Understanding

I have always been one to dot my I’s and cross my T’s. I would make sure everything  was pleasing and presentable to others prior to sharing. The thoughts and opinions  of others were not only my motivation, but the standard. 

I initially did not want to begin my blog until I had my entire page presentable to my high standards. My understanding told me that no one would read it, unless I had all the glitz and glimmer attached to it. However, the Lord used multiple social media posts, family and friends to tell me otherwise.

 I’m sure I am not the only one who gets aggravated by social media posts that says, “I don’t know who this is for”. When these posts come up on my page, I immediately stroll right past it. However, on that day, that post was exactly what I needed.  Yes, I was the one who it was for!  The post stated “start the project, write the book, write the blog.” I had received this message many times before through that still small voice, yet this time I knew I had to be obedient. My timing and my standards wanted me to wait until I had everything perfectly in order.  However, the tone of that small voice had changed. It was no longer encouraging, but now ready to move forward to a more willing vessel. At that moment I knew that my disobedience had consequences, not only for myself but to those who would be led to Christ by my testimonies. I knew that if I continued to be disobedient then God would use someone else to fulfill his purpose.  So, I said yes Lord, not my will, but your will be done. I made a choice, a choice to utilize my gift to uplift and spread the love of Jesus Christ.

It was placed in my heart a few years ago, that my assignment would be an atypical ministry. It would not be one that stands in front of crowds with encouraging words or one that carried a title. It was one that I would simply be a sister.  My ministry would be one that tells unimaginable truths, give testimonies of the many failures and flaws experienced. One that not only tells the strength of an All Mighty God, but the love, mercy and grace of the Father. A ministry that would reach billions through technology, not for my own satisfaction or gratification but to show the Father’s love and strength.

 So welcome to Vwailia’s Gift, walk with me on this journey of love, healing, strength and worship.

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct path.